It has been a silent and steady path, without going back and forth, with a strong belief that I hold today..My God is not outside of me. My God lies deep within me. He is not someone else, my God is me and I find him through all that I choose to be. I am answerable to myself first.
I may visit a temple or two rarely to experience the ambience or quiet within. I am increasingly finding it difficult to look at a deity in the temple and pray. I do experience something powerful in that rare temple visiting experience, which i attribute to people's faith that fills the atmosphere there. Am unable to hold an external image of God anymore..It almost seems fake and meaningless..no am not an aetheist at all..
My God is deep inside me in various forms.
I reach God through my experience of bliss when one with music.
I reach God through those minor steps that take me deeper into myself leading me to own up my blind spots.
I reach God through my own conscience that keeps reminding me that there are also greys inbetween blacks and whites.
I reach God through the wringing pain I experience when I see or hear of animal suffering.
I reach God through my intuition that has been a forever friend.
My God is an integration of the good, bad and ugly within me, all of it together that makes me "me".
very simple, yet profound. provokes a lot of reflection within....look forward to more :)
ReplyDeleteHi Saviths,
ReplyDeleteIntriguing! As a long term agnostic, I am always curious (and sometimes envious) about any kind of spiritual certainty. I struggle to reconcile notions of God with objective reality - there is this logic chip in my head that is always nagged by doubt! After years of pondering this, I am sure only of one thing - that if there is indeed a God, she will have not expect anyone to pray to her, or remember her or indeed even be conscious of her! As I always tell amma, if you're a good human being, it doesn't matter a jot whether you give any thought to god or not? At least, that's my consolation!
Sridhar, nice to have you drop by! what you have said is intriguing too..gives me yet another perspective to ponder over..
ReplyDeleteThere's the Black, the White and the In Between.
ReplyDeleteIt is within these episodes that the magic lies. Could be one's reason, root, God, or many such intangible et ceteras.
Loved the write. Simple, but powerful!
Thanks for dropping by Shalini! happy you liked the write..
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