For you..my inspiration!

I dreamt of a rainbow I could lay my hands on..

Its arched beautiful back beyond the far horizon

I swam steadfast in the deep blue sea

Encountering many a school of colour and splendour



Some friendly some wary some daring some menacing

All attractive and Scary.. I could not stop myself from playing with them all

We tided together through highs and lows, bristling between life and death

Enjoying the caresses of flora and fauna through the expansive waves



An elusive mirage, the horizon did I reach in vain

Mom, did you say I dare not look beyond where the rainbow shone

Since you knew I would never reach it, or,

In your wisdom, you knew everything came back in circles



Mom silent, I cut from her secure umbilicus

For my being demands that I live no longer on borrowed grey matter

I dread the moment when the huge wave took me by surprise

And I open my eyes into the deep blue sea and see the colors engulf my being


Searching beyond where it doesnt exist, how long would you waste

Lest you 'exist' being safe and sound but not 'live' through that every mile

Of what use is it in this life that is given on a short term lease

Come pay that tax of fear, hurt and misery


Be you, not what you are asked to be

Be your rainbow, may it not fade as a distant dream

Drink on life, not stop with memorising the verses of your religious texts

Be your GOD ..LIVE your own zen commandments!

A Stance revisited..

Barriers and Boundaries..bore through to break new ground, sprout out with new born life..when the time comes, nothing can stop life from taking form..We mortal humans think that we are in control..such is our illusion.

Life decides when to be born..for a new life to be born, something else dies..may be a myth, may be a stance, may be a fixation, may be a prejudice, may be a very real fear.. or may be just a touch could sow the seed for you..allow yourself to be touched by anyone, anything, an animal, a person rich or poor, may be by an experience where you generously give and receive with your heart, may be by just honestly accepting what is without pretences...or may be someone will come your way just when you are looking to be born or ready to be reborn or re reborn..am i making sense..yes, to me i am..

May the beauty of not comprehending some things in life remain forever thus for what has to be comprehended has been at this time..anything more that I try to comprehend will lead to a theory and theories there are a million anyway..

An ode to my Guru..20 years today!

It was the first hard hitting blow that I experienced in my life. My dear Guru DKJ Sir who i reverred just too much was just gone one morning after teaching us the previous evening...literally till his last breath. Such was his passion for teaching and commitment to his students. I remember that i took his passing away very very badly..

Today, after 20 years, my Guru lives on and on..this is the truth about legends!
Incomparable voice, style, precision and so much more..I don't dare to hear some of his specialities being sung by anyone else..I just can't..period.

I get much affirmation for the kind of teacher I am today..I honestly owe it all to my Guru..the infectious energy and passion for music that we students drew from him was not as obvious then, as it is to me now, and I see him living on in my untiring spirit and eagerness to teach children and help pass on the richness of our tradition that I was blessed to imbibe. I realised that I don't even question the motivation in me in going through even the beginner's lessons over and over again with every new student..The passion for teaching music must have just got inherited from the greatest teacher of all times...my dearest DKJ sir..he is truly immortal!